Well, given that Project Avalon's Fearless Leader™ only allows communication between Project Avalon and The One Truth when it's a one-sided (and unequivocally false) allegation toward us while hush-hushing away any serious attempts at inter-forum communication and reconciliation, I will be replying to some of Malisa/Mashika's statements here, so that she will be able to read them, as well as the other two idiots who replied to her thread. Because we are transparent, we are honest and sincere, and we still have a sense of honor and dignity.
And yes, I count Fearless Leader™ among those idiots, since he still doesn't understand first thing about autism, and yet he likes to prostrate himself before his faithful flock as an expert in psychology and neurology. So let me address that little bit first, before I get into replying to Malisa.
The belief that autistic people are devoid of empathy is completely false, and based purely upon the superficial observation of an autistic person's physical reactions — and even then still, it usually pertains to a low-functioning autistic person. It has nothing to do with what an autistic person — and especially not a high-functioning autistic person — is actually feeling.
Auties have a far greater quantity of mirror neurons and are generally far more empathetic than non-autistic people, unless they are afflicted with one of the well-known cluster personality disorders such as narcissism and/or psychopathy. The well-respected and longstanding Project Avalon member Simon "they will never ban me from PA" Parkes is a textbook example of an autistic psychopath. He has no empathy whatsoever, and by consequence, also no sense of ethics, no sense of guilt, no remorse, no compassion, and no mercy.
Instead of reading alt-right pseudoscience inside of an echo chamber, you — i.e. Project Avalon's Fearless Leader™ — may actually want to delve into some truly scientific studies regarding autism. And I will give you a very important hint too: make sure those studies do not come from US American psychiatrists/neurologists, because they're still lagging about 50 years behind on their European colleagues.
And now onto Malisa. I do have to say that she does have quite a sense of drama, and I can also see how her sense of drama would be perfectly in tune with the general hypocrisy ruling Project Avalon. So here goes.
Very Shakespearean. Bravo. If I were a typical Project Avalon member, I'd fall for it, hook-line-sinker. Well done. You're a good actress, but not good enough yet. Maybe you ought to study Meryl Streep instead of Kim Kardashian. Or for that matter, ita.
I do not hate you. Seriously, I do not hate you. But after what you have done, I also cannot respect you anymore, and I loathe your duplicity and your backstabbing. And I do tend to make fun of people (and concepts) that I loathe. It's called sarcasm.
Also, nothing of what I said was a lie, because as I said in the post of mine that you are responding to, we've got all of that stuff on record in the mod room. I could copy and paste it here, even, but that would be unethical, because it's all stuff from private messages between yourself and myself — which I did report to the mod room whenever it concerned something that I felt was important enough to share with the management here, although I did not report each and every conversation we've ever had.
The PMs that you sent me while pretending to be your younger sister, ranting about how Project Avalon had so badly mistreated you — "you" in this sentence referring to yourself, Malisa, not to your sister, who was supposedly using your account, both here and at Project Avalon — were among the ones I reported to the mod room. As the matter of fact, I synchronistically happened to come upon that report thread again in our archives only a few days ago while I was looking for an old report thread on something completely unrelated.
You also had my private email address, and you had an active account here, and you could have asked me that question of why I retired Christian when he sabotaged his email address so that his notification emails would bounce, while I did not do the same thing with your account when your own notification emails bounced. I already gave you that answer earlier, but I'll reiterate: you were still connecting here, while Christian had made it abundantly clear in literal wording that he was not coming back.
It's that simple. And you could have asked me that over here, or by way of an email. But instead of asking me, you went into that members-only witch-hunting thread at Project Avalon and rhetorically asked that very same question there, with the clear intent of casting suspicion on myself after I had already been banned from Project Avalon for no reason by Fearless Leader™ himself, and without even having been notified of such, and thus, without that I would even have known about your question if someone else had not brought it to my attention. That's not just stupid, Masha; that's malevolence.
I'm not a liar, Masha. You are. You're playing games with people. You're telling people conflicting stories, and you're incredibly capricious. You'll go away on a long journey and you won't be back in a long time, and then two days later you're back as if nothing happened. You were the Captain of a Russian guerrilla team of teenagers in the trenches in Ukraine and you didn't know how to set up a proxy server, but you're also a programmer in artificial intelligence development. Right.
Project Avalon might believe you — in fact, I'm pretty certain that they will — but someone with my life's experience isn't going to fall for that anymore, nor for your crocodile tears. And believe me, I usually do fall for that stuff, because I'm a big softie — much more so than your new buddy, Fearless Leader™, whose empathy is only feigned. But then again, he's a good actor too, and he too had me fooled for a while. The two of you will probably make a good tag team, and history has already abundantly shown that Project Avalonloves tag teams.
Nope, I don't hate you. I actually feel sorry for you, because you must have a badly fucked-up ego to be putting on such a display and to be playing those games the way you have been doing all along.
I don't hate you at all. But I will never trust you again after what you did. That's a given. And I'm not the only one here who feels this way.
You are completely misrepresenting things — again, because you did it before at Project Avalon, in that members-only thread where you were talking behind my back.
First of all, I did not ask you to accept Fred as a friend. What I did tell you was that Fred's friendship for you and his attempts to listen to you and counsel you while he was still pretending to be Gracy May, were genuine, and that he truly did care for you. But because he had painted himself into a corner by pretending to be somebody else, he could not tell you the truth about that, as much as he wanted to.
After you found out the truth of his false identity, you went ballistic — we've got all of that on record in the mod room too — and you hated his guts. Now, I can perfectly relate to how you were really feeling about that beneath the hyperbole, because I have been in a similar situation myself once, and I did tell you that story. But you continued going ballistic and you absolutely hated Fred, and I just couldn't talk any sense into you.
All I was asking you to do was to consider Fred's vantage, and how all of that had evolved beyond his control due to him having painted himself into a corner. And I believe I may have asked you to forgive him, and to consider that his friendship was genuine.
But due to your hyperbolic reaction and the pressure you were putting on myself at the time, I realize now that I may not have worded things as well as I should have. Because that is one of my autism-related shortcomings: when I am experiencing stress, then my communication skills start failing and then my dyslexia kicks into overdrive, and I then choose the wrong words, even at the risk of sounding blunt, even though I must say that I don't believe I was being blunt with you.
And here's another thing for you to ponder... How is Fred's impersonation of Gracy May over at Project Avalon any worse than the games you have been playing with people, and that you're still playing now over at Project Avalon? Fred lied about his identity. You lied about almost everything else.
The above is all that I'm responding to from your Project Avalon post, Masha, because the rest of it is merely a dramatic repetition of what you had already said higher up in said post. I am also not going to be monitoring that Project Avalon thread, because that place just makes me nauseous. This was a one-time response to your opening post on said PA thread, and this is where the communication ends for me.
Again, I do not hate you. But you've lost my respect. I was also not singling you out in my previous post on this thread here, but you were being brought up by someone else regarding your earlier behavior, and so I simply responded to that. With a more than fair dose of sarcasm, I'll admit that, but then again, when someone causes me to lose my respect for them, then they are fair game for such a treatment.
After all, I have feelings too, notwithstanding Fearless Leader™'s feeble attempts at making Project Avalon believe that he's an expert psychologist — who cannot even see the beam in his own eye and should therefore not be commenting on the splinter in the eyes of other people — and you did betray not just myself, but even this very forum, where you had always been welcomed with respect, honesty and genuine friendship. And you did it while surrounding yourself with sycophants, hypocrites, overinflated egos and emotional manipulators.
Of course, you are not the only one to have betrayed us and lied to us, but then let it be your consolation that those others, too, are fair game for sarcasm from my end — Fearless Leader™ up front.
"I'm not a liar, Masha. You are."
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