I think many of us are experiencing a subtle kind of grief. I wonder if grief is too strong a word... maybe not. For years we collaborated and built a huge archive of wisdom, esoteric and healing information over at Avalon. The Avalon community has weathered many storms over the past decade, and it's a testament to the collective strength of the individuals there that the database of wisdom survives. And then we watch that database and community being over-run by people who post propaganda and illusion. This goes way back to Charles, Simon Parkes, the Pray Peace/Todd and Nora 'disclosure' and many others I forget to name right now. Q is the current op. Psy-op after psy-op.
Deep down we may be connected to the name and concept of Avalon in ways we cannot describe. "The Avalon mission". What does that mean? I can only speak for myself. Organic food, microfinance, new ways of living. While that information does exist on Avalon, it has become eclipsed by louder, more insistent voices who simply will not stop clamoring. Money is being donated. And now Q is trying to sell an Iran attack.
I do not accept any responses like "It's only one of 100,000 threads"... or "let it play out". It's not like I suddenly woke up and caused a load of problems one day. This had been brewing under the surface for years. I don't accept the moderator's claimed neutrality, not in the light of continued donations, which is a taboo subject on Avalon. And I know a lot of others don't either.
Why? Because "let it play out" tends to take a full two years in forum time. Two years of confusion and negativity that spills into many threads. This has been happening since 2009 or thereabouts. I was a member of the original forum, and I remember how dark the vibe was. People were terrified of the 'ground crew' messages, and were all about heading for the hills. Fast forward to 2019, the Avalon soul group has matured, but the same themes are recurring. A whistleblower of the month who draws everyone into a rancorous vortex. I think we can all see the inevitable time when the moderators don their gleaming white armor and ban all Q threads. The crowd will cheer. There will be a period of one month silence, then, another psy-op will be started up. IMO this cynical cycling of psy-ops will never end, though I would like to be proved wrong. By putting the community through these two year cycles, they are squandering the only resource humans really have: time and energy.
I am just passing through and expressing how I am feeling. I know a lot of Avalonians read this thread. So if I have been acting a little odd recently, it's because I saw good minds in my generation being distracted by delusion, lies and more lies. Now I'm chilling out and rebalancing, but I still have some things to get off my chest. I should probably put them on a blog, as others advised.
Sure, I lead an active offline life. I need to spend more time in nature as others advised. But the name Avalon, at least in this corner of the net, has become muddied, chaotic and confused. Maybe that was the intention from the start. How long can we give these forces the benefit of the doubt? Another 10 years? Life is short. I will go rebuild and regroup locally, but I won't spend any more energy in that unproductive, surreal whirlpool.