I Am Amazing

[Paloma]

Once upon a time there was a sensitive, shy boy who was used to being called everything negative under the sun. That boy happened to be me. What was the worst thing about being treated unfairly on a constant basis for years? I actually started to believe that I deserved to be treated like crap and those negative beliefs shaped my views about myself. I believed that I was a worthless nobody who had nothing to offer and that life would only consist of pointless suffering. Do I believe that anymore? No, I don't, thanks to the grace of God and loving support.

I am no one in particular and yet I am someone who feels quite happy about themselves if they are able to assist others in any way.

I am that I am...

Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7blUYJm6i-c

You are perfect just the way you are, Wind.

[Dreamtimer]

I had a bit of that experience, Wind, and I can say that if I had been told that all the time, I too would have believed it. And then I would either have been suppressed and depressed or had some sort of rebellion and disappeared.

[Emil El Zapato]

Many of us experience that. I did and I just got meaner. As as an adolescent I carried the words from the song, "I am a rock" in my billfold. It took a good while to work through it.

[Wind]

You are perfect just the way you are, Wind.

Well, that's a very kind thing of you to say. I appreciate it coming from you.

Dreamtimer,

Tough experiences like that either make or break you, both happened to me. I'm still very much a work in progress, but at least I'm not believing those lies anymore. All those things and traumas probably lead me to this path I've been on. My consciousness has been revolutionized more or less, just probably often we humans would choose not to grow through such emotional pain... Because deep seated fears and anxieties ain't fun. They can be the greatest teachers though.

[Dreamtimer]

They can be the greatest teachers though.

So true. Still sucks though, imo.

[Aragorn]

Once upon a time there was a sensitive, shy boy who was used to being called everything negative under the sun. That boy happened to be me. What was the worst thing about being treated unfairly on a constant basis for years? I actually started to believe that I deserved to be treated like crap and those negative beliefs shaped my views about myself. I believed that I was a worthless nobody who had nothing to offer and that life would only consist of pointless suffering.

What you are describing here-above is literally the same thing as what happened to myself when I was younger. But then again, according to Dimple Duvet... Dumptruck Driver... Drivel Dumper... whatever, the Lego dude with the cape, you are me on another timeline, so I guess it makes sense.

All jest aside, no, it never makes any sense. Human beings can be so graceful at times, and yet other times they can also be the worst creatures to have ever dwelt this planet. And what I've learned is that people so like externalizing their own dark side by projecting it onto another person, so that they can detach themselves from it and hate it with a passion.

So when they look at you and they hate you, then it's really themselves that they see and whom they hate. And I'm not a Christian, but like the dude from Nazareth is alleged to have said, "Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do."

Forgiving is of course easy. Forgetting, on the other hand, is not. And especially not if, like me, you happen to have an eidetic memory.

People often say that the eyes are the mirror of the soul, but what they commonly understand by that is that someone's eyes would reflect the nature of their soul. To a certain extent, this is true, but what the expression really means, is that someone's eyes can be the mirror to your own soul. In my own case, I often tell people that I (as a whole) am the mirror to their soul. Whether innocently or on purpose, I seem to regularly confront people with their own flaws, and for that, they then hate me. Because deep down inside, they know that I speak the truth, and they can't handle that.

But I guess I have now reached a point in my life where I've stopped caring about whether they can handle it or whether they can't — or at least, when it comes to truly abusive people — because it is exactly that kind of people who are the reason why I've got nothing left to lose^*, and you're not going to wake them up to the truth about themselves by pampering them. Ego is running way too rampant on this world already as it is. No need to foster it even more, and especially not in this day and age where the proverbial kids have decided to start playing with those equally proverbial matches again.

* "Freedom's just another word for 'nothing left to lose'." (Janis Joplin, "Bobby McGee")

[Tick Tock]

Expressing thanks is part of the essential dynamic of receiving a gift of any kind. Without this acknowledgment, the giver feels as if his or her gift made no real difference. They feel diminished, as a consequence.

Yes maybe if you are at all end result motivated instead of a unconditional expressive intent with no need for thanks, rewards or acknowledgements of any kind, just doing your thing for the greater good of a supportive of life attitude. I understand this takes time to reach a pure strong level of maturity to express and live this ideal.