Originally posted by
Kathy
NAP, Do you imagine your father would invoke bitterness towards you? If you do, I would advise that you put forgiveness in place.
When I experienced a near-death experience in which I felt such happiness and joy but from which I was persuaded to return to life. After that experience, I waited to see the nun who had knelt at the foot off my bed and, when I did see her, all she said was, "Kathy are you trying to catch flies?" I have since felt that I had been lied to.
That is a bit of a question but I would say undoubtedly my father was embittered about my existence...embittered but not hateful...there is a big difference. He was caught in an emotional whirlpool of no escape. All his kids bailed from the situation in different ways. My older brother is embittered and hateful...my younger brother is embittered but forgiving, not to mention dutiful. My sister was emotionally cast aside, and I'm bitter at times, philosophically forgiving, and thankful that he is at the end of his suffering on Earth. He was dealt a hand that was more challenging than he wished.
He died 60 years to the day as my mother...2 weeks before Christmas.