You didn't mention it literally, but you were most definitely alluding to it through a careful choice of words. I saw that, and I picked up on it with the intent of refuting the innuendo. No more, no less.
Of course you knew. I've already mentioned that several times here on the open forum.
He was the only one on Avalon who knew my legal name and my e-mail address. Furthermore, he also did the same to Malc, who had already no longer been a member of Project Avalon for four years at that point in time. But we know from Avalon insiders that he keeps all of this personal information stored on his own computers, for in the event that he needs it.
Furthermore, the lawsuit threats from Simon Parkes — served separately to Malc and to myself, but around the same time and over the same matter — were prompted by a members-only thread here at The One Truth. There were Simon Sez™ groupies here at the forum in those days, and they copied that thread back to Simon Parkes, who then requested our personal information from Bill Ryan with the intent of scaring us off with the threat of a lawsuit.
And Bill Ryan complied with Simon Parkes' request, because Parkes had already threatened both him personally and Avalon as a whole with a lawsuit as well earlier on, when Avalon members had begun filing complaints to the Avalon mod room about Simon Parkes and his sexual, financial and psychic misconduct. But instead of investigating the complaints from his members, Bill Ryan simply dropped down on his knees before Simon Parkes and sent him a PM with an apology on behalf of the entire Avalon forum. From that moment on, Simon Parkes owned Bill Ryan, and was free to do as he pleased over at The Project™.
I was p*ssed in the moment itself, but more so with Simon Parkes than with Bill Ryan.
Your mistake is to think that I am exactly the same as you. I am not. What makes me tick and what p*sses me off are specific to me, and I think that by now I've already amply shown that I've got a lot more patience than most other people.
If and when I hold a grudge, then I will acknowledge that. But I also tend to get myself over that quite early on.
And it's also exactly where you are wrong, because I am not making this about myself. I saw you making a veiled but unmistakable innuendo about autism and vaccines, and I addressed you on account of that innuendo. You responded by making another innuendo by way of another veiled but unmistakable allegation regarding myself as an individual.
I confronted you on that, and then you arrogantly unleashed a shit storm on me, even going so far as to accuse me of abusing my position as an administrator here in order to stifle or censor discussions. But apparently you were still missing that humongous beam in your own eye, because what has been happening here so far is that you're essentially suggesting that everyone should be allowed to vocalize their opinion, so long as they are not staff members. Because if a staff member vocalizes their own opinion or brings facts to the table that you don't agree with, then they are allegedly abusing their position.
And no, I'm not being paranoid, because I am not saying that you were consciously doing this. But subconsciously you were, yes. Your psyche was willing to latch on to my position as an administrator — see your comment where you accused me of making the "vaccines vs. autism" debate against the rules — as a way for shutting me up and depriving me of my freedom of speech.
So who's really running away from himself here, Marcus? Who's the one hiding behind false allegations, projections and suppositions — as you always do?
Not only do you mistake vaccine-induced injury for autism, Marcus, but you're also mistaking my assertiveness for arrogance, while completely missing the point that you are the one behaving arrogantly here. Arrogantly, condescendingly and patronizing.
And I hate to have to say it, but had this been Project Avalon and had I been Bill Ryan, then your posts would have been deleted at best — maybe even the whole thread would have been deleted — and you would have been instantly banned at worst.
You know nothing about me, Marcus. Nothing, other than that I'm autistic and that I was banned from Project Avalon somewhere in the past. You know nothing about my past, and you know nothing about my psyche. But I am not here to draw any attention onto myself or have any debates about what it is that I came here to do. Instead, I simply do that.
Like I've said before, Marcus, you're entitled to your opinion, even if your opinion is utterly wrong. This debate is not about me, nor about my existence beyond this mortal life. All of that is irrelevant.
- I am not the one being arrogant here. You are.
- I am not deceiving myself. In fact, I am probably 300% more in touch with every aspect of my being — from my psyche over to my autistic neurology and down to how my environment affects my thoughts — than you are, courtesy of the fact that I've been perpetually psycho-evaluating myself every friggin' day of the last 45-odd years or so. Which I needed to do because of the severe degree of psychological abuse I had to endure when I was growing up. It was the only way to retain my sanity.
- I have never said that I would not be capable of anger, hatred or envy, and I have no idea whatsoever where you would have dug that up.
Physician, heal thyself.
I'm afraid that the only one who construes my intervention with regard to what you said about those vaccines as an attack on you, would be you, Marcus. You have all of your facts backwards, all the way from the "vaccines versus autism" issue over to who is being arrogant here and down to who is — still — attacking whom.
I rest my case, and I've got nothing more to add here than that your account will be put in retirement in 4 hours and 17 minutes from now, unless you contact the staff beforehand in order to rescind your request.