Originally posted by
Aragorn
As for what you call "his pain body", I've been thinking a lot about what you said with regard to him, and especially so in recent times —
The more I thought about it, and especially in light of how his behavior toward myself always turned out friendly whenever he thought I could be useful to him, but passive-aggressive, disdainful and avoidant when not, the more I started realizing that my initial analysis of Billzebub's personality was actually spot-on, namely that he is indeed a clinical narcissist, and that he is manipulative, bordering on Machiavellianism — not exactly the kind of person qualified to diagnose other people as "sociopathic", "socially inept" or "insensitive". In fact, I would say that he probably scores high on cognitive empathy (which is the ability to intellectually assess another person's situation from their vantage) but very low on emotional empathy (which is the ability to feel what another person is feeling).
In fact, he's so petty that he doesn't even care about whom he blames for what, so long as he's got someone to blame.
And yes, bingo, I caught the guy. One of the IP addresses matched someone who had been banned from TOT years ago for having DDoS'd us, and who had been banned from Project Avalon over untruthfulness regarding his whereabouts only about a week before they too were DDoS'd.
The bottom line is that his purported respect and friendship for myself as an individual and for The One Truth as a forum were only feigned. They were a ruse for drawing me onboard at Project Avalon because he needed a capable vBulletin administrator, and as was recently shown to me from a log of their mod chat on Discord, for his hope that reeling me in for Project Avalon would have meant — and I quote again — "the death knell for TOT".
With that in mind, it begs the question whether any of his friendships are actually real and based upon altruistic feelings, genuine interest and sympathy. Because if you can feign friendship the way he has done with myself and with so many others, then who's to say that he'd be even capable of such feelings in the first place? After all, if you look at all of the friendships he entertains, then all of them are geared toward making him feel admired and loved by his audience, and he can turn around on you and bluntly stop communicating with you in the blink of an eye whenever it suits him. To me, that doesn't sound anything like friendship.
Anyway, his grandiosity also becomes evident in his past-life recounts. He was allegedly a leader or high-ranking military officer in some interplanetary conflict, and an error in judgement on his part caused the population of an entire planet to suffer for a million years, or something like that. Apparently, after so many lifetimes, he still hasn't learned his lesson then. But then again, staying with the woo-woo, one could posit that narcissism isn't so much a neurological condition as it would be a condition of the soul, and that his soul was probably already narcissistic before it incarnated into his current physical body, as well as that if he reincarnates again after this life, then he'll probably still be a manipulative narcissist in his next life too. Because that's just who and what he is.
You asked me once — albeit in different wording — whether there's any good in him. Well, yes, there is — definitely. But the way he seamlessly and shamelessly switches back and forth between benevolence and outright malevolence without a qualm is what makes him into a sorry excuse for a human being in my eyes. I would even daresay a sociopath. :hmm: