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Catsquotl
3rd January 2015, 17:34
Al my life I have been on the sidelines of things.
As such I see experiences happening around. Idea's come and go.
Somehow I've been able to dip into them from an intuitive(for lack of a better word) point of view.
Combining what I thought I knew with new information to explore new concepts. Or rather explore possible explanations to existing ones.

Inside though the feeling of lack was always there.
Questions like I should do something with what I know.
Me telling me to get of my lazy ass and act.

I just never do. I sit and think and wonder as life passes me by.
Doing the mundane chores of the day.
Slaving like every sheep on the block.

And yet there is this knowledge of wondrous places.
Knowledge of dreadful places.
Knowledge of heroes and cowards. Of acters/actors and audiences.
It all passes by.
Transient, illusionary, painful/unsatisfactory....
And yet I live it all. I see it all.
I get grumpy and fall asleep to wake up tired and do it all over again.

I long for the security of reality. The undivided knowing of All.
And then I realize I do.

It does not matter what I feel. It does not matter what I know or long for.
Life is here. experiencing itself through me. And I am no longer there..
I just think I am.

With Love
Eelco